Wondering, once more.

I randomly thought of how I was able to stay in one class in elementary school. o__o; Now that I think of staying in one class for 8 hours of school, I would simply diiiiee.

I painted my closet doors today. I found a piece of HAIRY, MOLDY gum. It was gross, but I felt he deserved a name. Victoria called him Fuzzy Lumpkins. Dear Fuzzy Lumpkins, you're the reason why closet door would never shut. I hope you have fun on your trip elsewhere. Love, Michelle.

My mom is colorblind. She thought this green color was pink. -_-; Aiyah.

Today was a bad day.
I had so many test/quizzes/essays, my head was in a headrush moment all day, pretty much.
I wasn't able to take my nap either because I was busy painting.
At least I did a majority of my important homework.

I dislike school at the moment, blog. :( I can't wait until this weekend. I hate how teachers cram everything in the last week.

On the brighter side, I got my SFState application question answered, finally.

I feel like crying though because I didn't want to be too late for the SFState meeting, that I rushed through my essay and couldn't concentrate properly on it. Ugh, damn and my application mistakes.

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Ok. Just finished my application for a job.
Night, folks.

Geez. Really now?

Just because I don't speak Khmer well doesn't mean I don't understand it; I do, perfectly well.
Damn fucking old tarts. No need to fucking shame my brothers or me down.

Friend & Sibling Adoration.

Today was a spiffy day.

- I got to sleep in 45 minutes because of no A period, but I still had to stop by at the gym to tell my teacher I was "here" for A period. He ended up not being there so blah.

- I ate my sandwich in senoras class. Finished my work on time.

- Talked to Alameda about me being here on time. Dance class, chilled and listened to music.

- Read in all 3rd period. Found new things about The Metamorphosis.

- Rally period, went to the library with Victoria and ventured around. :3

- Lunch period, walked around. I pigged out like a mofo. Victoria was spazzy. o__o; <3>

- Physics, finished my work.

- Trig. I actually paid attention and triiiiied. Stayed after a bit to get some more explanations.

- APGov. Read essays, took notes. Malina LAST minute told me she was going to visit me.

- Parade. Really quick, but kudos to the floats. :)

- Peets Coffee for the first time ever. My mocha freddo(?) was okaaay. Mocha latte>mocha freddo. Discovered the taste of real, coffee&milk only coffee. I died a bit inside.

- Malina picked me up, yaay! Along with Marilyn and Amenda. Bum drank my drink. Trader Joes to get munchies. Munched on munchies.

- Got home, Malina raided my room.

- Sallys! GOT NAILPOLISHES FOR PEOPLEEE and myself. :3

- Learned how to tie a tie

- Spazzed out on my brothers HP costume.

- Now i'm here, haaaaay.

What I Love About Nightmares

Is that they seem to stretch for a long, long time. Especially when you only have 3 hours of sleep, it makes it seem like 10 hours. Hellish? I suppose so, but when you wake up, you're wide awake.

I'm weird.

I had a dream where I put my purse in a crane machine and two hours later, my purse was gone. I asked the worker who took it and he shrugged and all he gave me was the 80 bucks that was in my wallet telling me it was the person wanting to give it back. But they still took my wallet, purse, digicam, and phone. -_-; I was more devastated with that. LOL.

Last night, I had a nightmare about a stalker in my house trying to find me and kill me. I've been having a lot of dreams about that. Everytime I attempt to talk to the police, my voice fails on me. Even though it was only a 45 minute sleep, it seemed like forever. It was great, oddly enough. I knew I was dreaming so I was floating in and out of dream world. Haha~

I wonder if I still sleeptalk. All my dreams consist of me not talking, if I do. It's the most painful thing ever to get my voice out. I remember also having a dream about confronting my cousin about shit, well... it was painful to talk but I did get words through. I just wonder if I was shouting it in reality.

Goodnight folks.

Cereal

is fantastic at night. :) Special K with Strawberries if my new favorite now. <3 Replacing Honey Bunches of Oats with Strawberries.

Even though I don't have any homework today (If I do, it's probably not due until Monday) I still feel crappy. I don't know why.

No A period tomorrow, so maybe then I can get spiffied up a bit. :)
Makeup? Maybe. I haven't worn any at ALL this year for school considering I wake up 20 minutes before A period starts and then I get all sweaty and grimey then my makeup is all smooshy and smudged. I rather not risk that.

I just hate it when I look so different with it on.
Oh well.
I'll go extremely light.

TGIF tomorrow.
Next week is end of the quarter.
BOOOOOOO. I still have B's! FDKLGJD

I wish I was something special.

As I'm writing my personal statement, I can't help but feel like a failure in life.
I haven't joined many clubs at all.
I barely have any community service hours.
I'm not a "leader" in my community.
I'm just plain 'ole whatever.

On the brighter side, I took a 3 hour nap.
I sleep too much.
I'm thinking of working Saturday, but nah. Maybe it'll just be a chill day. I'll work on Sunday.

fkjds;

Killer massive headaches these past few days. My head is freakishly heavy when I wake up each morning, I contemplate whether I should go to school or not. I conclude that when I wash my face I'll wake up and the headache will go away, nope.

Off to school I go, again.

Frustrating.

I hate the idea of myself not understanding anything (if I try, that is)
I tried in Physics. Really, I still do.
BUT IT'S THE MOST FRUSTRATING CLASS EVER, I SWEAR.

APLit is driving me nuts. I'm at an 83%. Bye bye wishful 4.0. :[

ASKLFJASKGLDS.

Naked.

My nails are going to be lacquer-less tomorrow.
I'm going to feel so naked and exposed.
My nails are all... yellow and stained.
I re-did my nails... Saturday, but I didn't like them at all, so I removed it.

Then I became occupied with Halloweentown movies, Phineas and Ferb marathon, and Hannah Montana marathon. I haven't watched TV in forever. Thankfully I stopped watching TV for awhile, these shows these days are ADDICTING. (You gotta admit, Hannah Montana is catchy, well when you first start watching it anyway.) I have a love for Phineas and Ferb and Wizards of Waverly Place. Yes, Disney is the only kid channel on my lack-of-channels-tv.

No, I don't like adult shows like.... I DON'T KNOW. House? Is that what Pan&Denise watch all the time? But then again, I've never watched it, so I can't judge. I like Supernatural though, only if I watch it with someone. I'll get chickened out if I watch it all by my lonesome.

After finishing watching TV at... 9. I took a shower cleaned up, waxed off my effin eyebrows again. (I'm wayyy too impatient to pluck, failure.) Because I'm so impatient, I end up waxing, then end up taking off more than I need to on my eyebrows so they look funny, once more. Karma, I tell you. Then I did a majority of my homework! (cept physics, booo. forget it.) Now I'mn blogging. It's 11:03 pm now I'll go to bed now after I read a bit. :)

I wish I didn't lose my other mitten, otherwise I won't expose these naked babies *holds up fingernails* to anyone.

Night folks.

Bubbaaaloooo

I just realized, the end of the quarter is coming up and I still have B's on my report card. Bleh.

On the brighter side, I finished my first college application. SFSU~

I didn't go with Denise, unfortunately. :[ What a bummer.
I ended up staying with the kids all day watching Disney Channel.

I hate filing my nails, it gives my nails a rough feeling. (which it is spose to) but I hatehatehate it.

I want to go nail polish shopping.

Halloween is coming up soon. Anyone need someone to do their nails for their costume? =D I'M DOING VICTORIA'S NAILS!!!!!!! FINALLLLLYYYYYY!

3 Day Weekend.

& it's already Saturday.
Yesterday, I spent the day with the three munchkins, playing outside and watching tv and whatnot.
I watched Ratatouille. I love that mooovie.
I order pizza since there wasn't any food in the house and my parents freaked when they got home. >___>

Yep yep.
Hopefully I'm able to get out todaaay.

Piss Off.

Seriously, my weight is MY weight. I know I eat a lot, let's just drop it at that.
Don't mention my weight, my fat, or anything related to that if all you're going to do is tell me to lose weight.
THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE WHO DON'T REALIZE HOW DAMAGING IT CAN BE TO FREQUENTLY REMIND PEOPLE HOW FAT THEY ARE.

I'm sorry that I'm not stick-skinny like those models.
I'm sorry that I would pick a burger over a plain salad anyday.
I'm sorry that I need 2 - 3 meals daily.
I'm sorry for wanting to look healthy.

It's no wonder why my self-esteem is so low.
I don't care if you're joking.
There are only a FEW people that can joke about my eating habits and weight
& they most likely know who they are.

Just Look On The Brightside.

SATs are over. :] Who's relieved? I am. Now just next month.... subject reasoning tests.
I was okay until it got to the 3rd hour. My butt was dying little by little.
Michelle? How did your butt hurt when you have all that fluff there?
Fluff deflates at times especially when youre on it for 3 hours.

Tomorrow, going out with Malina and see people. :] Yay!
Getting my costume at Denise's workplace? I hope so.


You're only as tall as your heart will let you be
And you're only as small as the world will make you seem.
When the going gets rough and you feel like you may fall
Just look on the brightside - you're roughly six feet tall.

Blank.

I've been feeling off lately. I dread a majority of my classes now. Scratch that, all of them. I feel stupid because I can't seem to write a proper thesis for an essay about a book. I've been dead tired too. I come home, eat, pull out whatever homework, then plop on bed and fall asleep. I woke up in two to three hours with a huge headache. Am I getting too much sleep? I don't know anymore. I can't wait until after Saturday. Dreaded SATs. I need to purchase the chem&lit SAT subject books.

Messiness.

I miss how messy my room was.
Ironically, everything was easier to find
Because it was THAT messy for THAT long.
Not really, but maybe two weeks or so?
I'll never let anyone help me clean my room ever again.



I'm pretty much screwed.
I know the thing I'm looking for will turn up in the most obvious, stupidest place ever.

Hit Me With Your Best Shot.

This weekend went by pretty slow. Well, saturday, it did. My weekend was basically Harry Potter-filled. Not that I minded, however. :] Spent nice, quality time with my baby brothers. I love me some Ronald Weasley. :) Calvin and Christine came over yesterday. I really dislike how I'm so awkward. WHY AM I SO AWKWARD? :[

SAT's in 6 days.
Interact Picnic with Malina Sunday. I get to see my friends again! :) I hope she doesn't cancel and that I'm able to go.

I dislike my blogs being picture-less. I have a camera, but I don't take a lot of pictures. Whywhywhywhy? :[ Onion heads are total love them

Back to reality tomorrow.
I don't want to go.
I didn't much of anything yet.
Oh well.

October! :)

Although October is CSU application month, SAT month, and when the weather finally kicks in as fall... it's also... HALLOWEEN MONTH! Halloween = dress up time = fun time with the kids. :) I hope I get to go shopping for new costumes. YAYAYAY.

Not much today. I finally got my haircut, once more. No one in my family really likes it, but who cares. After the haircut, when I showered, I put my hair into a shampoo mohawk. I've never felt so spiffy. I take these pictures on my webcam to show my sister and Malina. I never know what faces to make. o__o Smiling seems a bit off, but frowning is a nono. Hello, squishy faces. :] The awkwardest of them all, but it seems to fit, yes?

I'm glad I barely have homework this week. I feel so chill. Friday tomorrow!
8 more days until SAT!
I signed up for SAT subject tests. Hello Literature and Chemistry. They don't relate at all, but that's okay. :)

I'm glad I'm doing pretty okay in my classes, either understanding everything, maintaining a high grade, or even both. I just hope it runs this smoothly the rest of the year.

'Cept that ONE class pissed the hell out of me today. The one class I was looking forward to my entire highschool career just got ruined. WHATEVER.

I hope I sleep early tonight. I wasn't able to sleep last night. I need to take advantage of these no-homework nights.