Pewpewpew.

Today was okay.

I hope I don't get moved in math. I talk too much in there, not all my fault though. The people around me need help, so they ask me because Sanders is busy helping out the people on the other side.

I got my F21 order in. I was pretty happy that I got it but my mom killed my mood.

My mom thinks I have some secretive boyfriend who I'm using for his money. Thanks mom. I'm glad you believe I'm like that. Geez.

She's been listening to my night-convos? Then she'll know I'm helping people with their homework. She should actually listen to the conversation rather than hear the deepness of the voice on the other line. She needs to accept the fact that I make better friends with guys than girls. (with the exception of the superduper awesome girls that I can get along with with no problem whatsoever.)

It's no use explaining it to her. She's only concerned with herself and family's benefits. If I explain to her that I'm helping them with their homework, she'll be like DON'T HELP THEM, THEY SHOULDN'T BE BOTHERING YOU. LET THEM DO IT BY THEMSELVES, YOU SHOULD BE CONCERNED WITH YOURSELF ONLY. & she's supposedly a believer in karma. No wonder she's so bitter.

I love my mom & all, but she's absolutely irrational and hypocritical. (I guess this is where I get my hypocrisy from.) If she continues thinking that I'm some friggen easy golddigger, I'm getting out.

I re-did my nails again for like the 3rd time this week. I'm pretty pleased with them this time.

Physics test tomorrow, kill me now.
Spanish test tomorrow, I'm not worried.

I didn't take my daily nap today.
So I'll sleep early tonight.

You know, back freshman year, I always wondered how my sister fell asleep with a bajillion stuff on her bed in her junior and senior year. I've come to realize, you just don't give a damn anymore. Hello spanish notebook, reading book, water bottle, nail polish, mp3 player, straightener, and stuffed animals. Wtf?

Goodnight.






Last day of September.
October = college apps.
Yay.

I'm the happiest girl today.

Because I got a 98 out of 100 on my trig test.
I'm not failing trig anymoooooooooooore~ :D
*dances*

Humpty Dumpty Mickey?

Sunday, I went to San Jose to go visit my cousins. I finally got to wear my oxford heels that Malina got me for my birthday. :) My cousins got me a Mickey Mouse pillow. I was being a brat and carrying it around until they said I could have it since Calvin supposedly bought it for me when they went to Disneyland. I practically squealed when I saw it. Panphila has a Donald Duck one. I think it's cuter because Mickey's ears slap me on the face a lot. But guess what!? It matches my MP3 player! WOOHOO! I'm happy. My mom overreacted when she saw my heels. I survived, how pro am I? Sike. :)

My cousin lives near a nail supply shop. Who could resist?! I sure can't. I purchased OPI Garangtuan Green Grape, OPI Breathe Life (YAY! I couldn't find one for Pan though, pooey.), China Glaze Eyes Like Sapphires, and China Glaze Rain Storm. I wasn't too sure about the China Glazes, but all the other colors I could've reached by Sally's. Mind as get the limited editions one, yes?

So yesterday night. I was just chilling talking with people online. Then the FATTEST fly I've ever seen comes into my room. It was so big and loud I could hear it land. :( Then I guess it knew I was scared of it, so it flew near me. I think Denise had fun. I turned off my lights then flew out of my room. I didn't see it come out, but I think it ninja-ed its way out of my room. :[ How can a fly on steroids be a ninja? Who knows, but I'm pretty jealous.

My grandma finally made my favoritest food in the world. Pho. :) I was feeling pretty much like humpty dumpty afterwards. I didn't even feel like reaching for my phone. I just laid on the bed for a couple hours cause I was that bloated. My tummy is happy now.

I got a bajillion bug bites. THEYRE KILLING MEEEEE. I hope Victoria doesn't see me itching tomorrow or else she'll smack me. X_X; Revenge~

I need to open up my soompi shop soon. My room is piling up. @_@ Ohnoes.

College applications are coming out soon! I'm feeling so indecisive. Anyway, time for bed now. Night night. :)

Cold weather is coming. Pooooooey. At least my warm room is coming into use.

Silly Rabbit, Trix are for kids. :)

I decided to give China Glaze For Audrey another shot. Surprisingly, I actually like it this time around. Sure, it doesn't match my skintone, but it's a nice color overall. Like Pan's, application was thick. Bummer. Maybe I like it because of the rabbits. I saw a picture on soompi of rabbit nails, so I thought I'd give it a shot. :) I've never felt so cool, HAHA. I'll probably have this one on for a few more days. I wish I had a nice mint green in my collection though. :( As usual, I can't do any designs on my right hand. I painted my toes in China Glaze's Neon Flying Dragon. I decided to give that one a chance too. It's still rough, but the color is vibrant. I forgive it.

I need to try out OPI's Banana Bandana. I keep forgetting to try it out. I still need to return Sephora's dark room. I'm thinking of exchanging it for metro chic since I don't have any nice grey cremes in my collection. Oh CG's Recycle, why can't I get my hands on you? >:[

I bought a couple stuff online from F21. I really hate having a budget, LOL. I remember being $1.18 over... then 9 cents over. There are no words to describe how disappointed, annoyed, and POed I was.

I also got a haircut. I'm thinking of going shorter. Who knows. No one in my family likes it because it makes me look old, at least it's easier to maintain. I may be extremely materialistic, but most of the time, I don't give a crap about my hair. My cousin was bitching/nagging about it the entire time. Geez, it's my hair. She tells me whatever I want, but did she really need to complain about it after she said that. Yes, it's my choice, don't bother me about it. My mom later agreed with me about my idea of hair because she knows I don't care much about it. At least my hair is undyed and barely fried and not dried out, dead, and completely fried. Kthxbai.

Character.

It always makes me wonder how a person's character is shaped into who they are now.
Do they have to go through tough times to be a good person?
Do they have to have things handed them on a silver platter to be a bad person?
Do they deal with abuse and ridicule to become nice?
Or do they take what they've dealt with and through it back at people's faces?

Of course, I'm not making assumptions to everyone, but...
why is it that the good people suffer?
Is it because they've dealt with so much shit&awareness that they're formed to be geniunely kind-hearted?


I'm not thinking straight. I'm sleepy, but it's just been bothering me.
I have too many questions running through my head.

Memories.

Yesterday, I went with my grandma to go pick up my brothers from school. On the drive there, I saw a few elementary schoolers looking down into a gutter, totally amazed of what was down there.

Flashbacks much?
Denise, Stephanie, and Angelina throwing cheetos and bottles to feed what was in the gutter in like 5th grade. XD Staring down into the gutter for several minutes to see if there was any movements. Puaha~

TGIF tomorrow.
Sleep. San Jose Sunday. I get to see my baby Christine! :)

I like the word pudgy. I'm getting pudgy. Pudgy pudgy.
I want another halloween costume. I hate how costumes are super expensive.

Ultimate cheesiness.

WTFsunnyislike: hey shel
WTFsunnyislike: so
WTFsunnyislike: i went to the hospital today
WTFsunnyislike: so lame.
WTFsunnyislike: and then they had to take an xray
WTFsunnyislike: soo they xray'd my whole upper body
WTFsunnyislike: and saw a picture of you in my head.
WTFsunnyislike: :]


This was totally blogworthy. It caught me offguard.

I Was Made to Be With You

Bleh. Late night doing homework. Tomorrow, while the rest of the seniors are at boat cruise, I'll be taking the fattest nap ever.

I hate physics at the moment. Confusing ass shit. I don't even feel like working on it, but my time adjustment is very narrow at the moment.

I need to stop blogging and get my homework done and over with.
I need to rewrite aplit question stuff.
Study for spanish test
math hw catchup
lab journal.

not much, but physics is making everything so damn time consuming. wtf?

College

Is anyone feeling just as scared as I am? Just as overwhelmed?
Maybe it's just me.
I was so excited for college last year, I couldn't wait to get out.
But now, it looks like a huge step I'm afraid of taking.

I Hate Odd Numbers and Unsharpened Tweezers.

I just realized today, I'm 17. I knew beforehand, but it just sort of hit me a couple hours ago. Then my reaction was pretty much "ewwww." I dislike odd numbers. I don't know why. When I was younger, my TV volume had numbers on it. When I adjusted it, I would always set it to an even number. I don't like the number 7, I like the number 6. Strange, huh?

My eyebrows are a friggen mess. I hate how my tweezers don't do shit. Really. I would wax them like I usually do, but I ended up ripping off a piece of my eyebrow... like I usually do. I would go get them threaded, but mom can tell, then she'll yell at me for wasting money when I already have a wax-machine-thingy already in my room. .___. We're in a recession... we're in a recession. Why am I so damn materialistic in a recession?!

On the brighter side, my mom made me a durian milkshake. :) I don't know how people find the smell so horrid. When I smell it in the house, I immediately think of durian and eat some of it's yummy goodness. =3

The Glass Fragments Raging a Storm.

Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs was absolutely adorable. :)
I'm most deff buying the DVD when it comes out. :D
We were going to Emeryville to watch it, but Emeryville didn't have non3D so we went to Hilltop instead. Pan, Denise, Ryan, Jeremy, and Pan's cousin went.
Talked with Denise and Pan before the movie started.
Then talked with Pan when we sat in the theater. Apparently, I don't have an inside voice.
Went to Ihop after and splitted foods with Pan.
Ryan dumped syrup on everythiiiing. Gross, but whatever.

I don't feel well right now.
So, I'll blog more later.


PS. The note on my whiteboard from Pan made me smile when I got home, lol. :D

It's All In Your Mind.

I can't wait for today.
Hopefully my mom won't bother me about it.
I want to cheer up.

I love my friends.
Thanks for talking with me yesterday and cheering me up
even when you guys probably knew I was crying like a dumbass.

I'm going to be okay. :)
Total dejavu though.

I hate how the weather keeps changing.
It's making me sick, literally.

Going to Emeryville today to go watch a couple movies with Denise, Pan, and Ryan.
MEATBALLS ftw. Then those two want to watch Jennifer's body. FML.
Buckhorn after? :]
Can't waaiiiit.

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I was rereading the end...
Man, poor Jenn. (Yeah, you.) Hella people are going to be watching Jennifer's body. AHAHA.
I love puns.
I'm lame, at least Malina understands where I'm coming from.

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me...

I'm looking forward to this Saturday with Denise&Pan. I think Ryan's coming along too? Cloudy with a chance of meatballs, folks. I can't wait. It'll make my week better since it's been a bad week.

It's been an on and off week.
- I've been wondering why I put up with your shit all this time. .
- Failed my math test.
+ Aced my physics and government test.
- Still procrastinating.
- Woke up 15 minutes before A period started. I never got ready so fast in my life.
- I feel like I'm not going to get any scholarships, so college fail.
- I lost one of my favorite shirts.
+ Random chats with friends.
- Mom nagging me about how I never help out with my brothers. I do, do they listen to me? No. Does she believe me? No. Screw it.
- California driving is a fucking bitch. People have no courtesy at ALL. It's no wonder people get into so many accidents. I miss Georgia. My grandma's nagging about my driving didn't help either.
- Dance&trig&physics, 'nuff said.
/ Creepy Denise.
- Dickheads.
- I feel like I don't get ANYTHING in spanish.
+ I love AP Lit.
+ MY MILK TOOF UPDATE. :)

I don't know what is up with me.
I hate school. At least it's Friday tomorrow.
Slowest day of the week.

Hot Cheeto Puffs

are the greatest things ever. So addicting. XD I bought a bag after trying them with Belle when we went to SF on the 4th.

Anyway, my grandma wanted to return her sunglasses so I splurged like crazy. Fuck me. D:


Sephora's Dark Room. I'm probably going to exchange this for metro chic.
OPI Banana Bandanna. It was on sale, so I snagged this. :)
OPI Russian Navy Matte. Dark blue matte, yay! :)
OPI La Paz-itively Hot Matte. Saw swatches of these and it was a must have. ^^;


My new jeans. :3 Black, regular, and dark-washed. 12 dollars each. Not bad, I guess. :3



Urban Decay Sustainable Shadow Box with travel size eyeshadow primer potion. I started early christmas shopping. I'm not entirely sure who to give this to yet. I don't want to keep it since I ever rarely wear makeup anymore and Urban Decay's eyeshadows are TOO shimmery for my taste. They're highly pigmented though. :)


The Oxford heels that Malina got me finally came in. How fucking gorgeous are they?! I don't know when&where to wear these to, but if I ever get the chance to wear heels out again, I'll most deff wear these. :)
Red undersoles remind me of Christian Louboutin shoes, so hopefully no one will get on my ass about having fakes. -_-;

They went shopping today again, but I held back since I have a lot of homework and chores to do today. Home alone, finally. :)

I Can't Stop Love Love Love

It's Midnight, your tired drunk voice
2:00 a.m., the abruptly ended phone call

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever been in love before?
Falling at first sight, like in the movies?
Spent the entire night talking on the phone?
Bragged to the entire world?
Waited in the pouring rain?
Run like crazy to the one you love?
Secretly guarded?
Gone crazy?
Pretended not to see when you really did?

I’m sure you have been in love
Spent all your money on your anniversary
Apologized even when you didn’t do anything wrong
Spent entire days writing love letters
Pushed back promises with your family
Prayed to God for that persons health
Ignored your friends
Missed them
Guarded their leaving figure

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Had your makeup wash off in the pouring rain?
Cut your long hair?
Started smoking again?
Avoided areas where they might be?
Wrote letters you know you would never send?
Called them while you were drunk?
(Hello?)
Had your lips freeze up

I’m sure you've had a broken heart
Hated them as much as you loved them
Ripped up letters you didn’t read
Deleted the phone number you will never forget
Celebrated anniversaries by yourself
Burned all the photographs
Thought every song about heartbreak in the world was yours

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Cry like an idiot
Get drunk again
Hold on to your friend
And curse that person

Time passes
Get drunk again
Grab the phone
Say love!

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Nobody knows my heart
In reality, only you don't know
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
As I live my life, I’m sure I'll see you again

--

I love this song.
Take me back to the Epik High concert.
I'm glad no one ruined this song for me.

Mint Chip Ice Cream.

I would go for a pint right now.
It's freakishly hot.
I love my room in the winter because it's small and warm.
In the summer, it's death valley. My laptop overheats like crazy too.

Mint chip icecreeeaaam, how I miss you so.
No one in my family likes mintchip ice cream, so they don't buy it.

Ooh, the refreshing minty goodness. :[

Procrastination, once more.

I always feel like killing your self-esteem because you kill mine. I don't know how you're going to deal, but whatever comes at you, I'm pretty sure you deserve it.

Bad karma points these days. I've been feeling so negative and taking it out on other people. I have a feeling something huge is going to hit me.

I've been slacking off like crazy. I've only just been barely doing my homework in early morning or at school. Usually, I don't get done. Why haven't I learned my lesson?

I don't even know why I try anymore. It's been practically six months, I'm going no where. If anything at all, I'm just going backwards. Dude, six months? Really? That's pretty damn surprising since it's only infatuation.

My nails are too bright. I don't know why I painted them with this specific color&brand. It's too pretty, but application and removal is a fucking bitch. Seriously.

I miss my friends, I miss my sister. I miss having someone close that I can confide in face-to-face. I love the internet, but it's... well, the internet.

What made my day:
Girl Genius xD: MICHELLE. T^T
rawr MICHELLIE: yess?
Girl Genius xD: I'M SORRY I DIDN'T SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ON THE 7TH
Girl Genius xD: IWAS GONNA
Girl Genius xD: BUT THE JULIE LIED AND KEPT TELLING ME THE 9TH
Girl Genius xD: SO THEN I GOT SCARED
Girl Genius xD: T^T
rawr MICHELLIE: LOOOL
Girl Genius xD: i knew i shouldn't have believed her T^T
Girl Genius xD: I'M GONNA YELL AT HER TOMORROW. >:P
Girl Genius xD: i knew it.
Girl Genius xD: T^T

Girl Genius xD: and then she made me feel bad
Girl Genius xD: so i went to check your myspace comments like a stalker.
Girl Genius xD: T^T
Girl Genius xD: and then no one said happy birthday to you today
Girl Genius xD: so i was like freaking julie v____v

^ Gah, I love her. She's so adorable.

Okay, homework time folks. :)

ps. I failed that APLIT essay. FMLLL.

Please Don't Give Up, Dear You.

Contentment.

Two more days until my birthday. I'm not looking forward to it, it'll just be another day. I enjoyed my birthday-ness yesterday.

Thanks Malina&Denise for coming all the way to Pinole and standing outside my classroom. <3 Although it was a total facepalm moment, I still love you guys. It's a small world. Thanks Phillip for buying gummy worms for me again, even if all we do is fight.

Ate sushi then headed for shopping. I got a pair of new boots, a jacket, and tights. I gave Denise Becky's present to give to her. I hope she likes it. Thanks Denise for being the ultimate sweetheart. <3 I discovered even though Malina & I are practically the same size, we pull off different things. Fortunately, I'm not the one that pulls off slutty clothing. MUAHA~ That's cause Malina's diiiirrrttyyy. Just kidding. She got a pair of slutboots though. Those two BARELY bought anything. Makes me saaad. We all got the same pair of tights. Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, much? SIIIKE.

Victoria gave me a burned copy of The Matches Decomposer album. It's amazing. I listen to it everyday. Poor her for catching a bad cold though. :( I hope she gets better soon.

My day got ruined after Denise and Malina left. It's my fault though, so whatever.

I cheered up when I played omgpop games with Pan & Belle for like.. two hours until I was damn tired. I fell asleep at 10:30. I woke up at 8. I miss summer.

School's okay. No complaints about A period PE because I get to work out and I'm wide awake and warm when it comes to first period. Dance is a failure though. All we do is stretch. I can't wait until a new teacher comes because I feel like dropping that class completely. Bleh. 5th&6th period goes by pretty slowly though, unfortunately. AP Lit has to be my favorite class though, so far. I want my locker though. I don't have any classes in the halls except the 400's so I hope I get a locker there just because. X_X;

I hope this blog gets in because I've been trying to post a couple blogs already, but failed because it didn't go through. If this doesn't go through, maybe I'll move back to Xanga or head to Tumblr. Who knows. D: So, go through blog!

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Yay, it went through. :]