I adore color...

but I feel so black&white now. It suits the picture more, I guess. I'm still working on it. I wish I was able to take a photography class.

I hate being a girl sometimes. I get all moody, then I get frustrated because of my stupid moodswings. It feels odd to be aware that I'm being moody, then becoming moodier because of me being aware of my moodswings. I don't think that made any sense, but hell, who reads this anyway?

Mood is a funny word.

I want to go to someplace nice and take a lot of photos. I miss open space. I've always thought myself to be a city person, but now quiet, open areas sound more appealing to me these days.

I think too much, so much that I confuse myself constantly.

School tomorrow.
My sleep is messed up.
Good night, folks.

I feel so pessimistic right now.
Damn moodswings. Haah~

Poofity poof!

It's saturdaaaaay! NUUUUUUUUUUUU~
My grandma is coming back tomorrow though. :]
I haven't done ANY ANY ANY of my homework.
FML.
I'm hungry.
:]

Have a nice saturday, folks.
Mine's wasting awaaaay.
I want my glasses.
I'm getting a headache.
I'm annoying myself.
Okay, I'll shutup.

I'm usually always posting when it's right near 12 am or a little bit past it. O_o No idea.

Anyway, I finally went shopping today although my mom gave me a 40 minute time limit. I had to bring my little brother too, so I went to F21. I didn't find the dress I wanted at first, but decided to look again later. I went to Waltz afterwards and bought two shoes, one for my sister and one for myself just because. =D It's a nice excuse to buy new shoes. Then I went back to F21 then finally found the dress I wanted. After, I went to the MAC section in Macy's to get the Peppermint Patti nail lacquer, but they've friggen sold out for who knows how long. :(

I bought my little brother a meal from Burger King because he took 3 numbing shots at the dentist and didn't scream or cry about it. However, my other little brother refused to let anyone touch him the hour and a half we were there. =___= I ended up running into my spanish teacher there too, coinkadinkally.

I should get to sleep. I've been waking up past 10 for a few days now, which is completely strange. Ah, well goodnight folks.

I hate needing to go to the bathroom at night. :[ It's so dark. I need to tinkle so bad right now, but I decided to blog about how I hate going to get stuff outside my room in the dark. I'm such a little kid. I do turn on the lights and do usually end up going to tinkle, but everyday this is the part I dread the most, besides school of course.

I went to the dentist today. It was quick, but not enjoyable. I have to do another appointment and the only days are available are Tuesdays and Thursdays afternoon. So, I have to miss the away game against Encinal, ugh. I wanted my mom to schedule it in the morning but she refused to. Oh gosh darnit. :[ My teeth are so sensitive right now, I can't eat. That's so depressing since I usually eat practically ever hour. Damn dentists, but brownie points to them for being able to deal with little kids, dirty mouths, and getting bitten.

I really hate thinking about it. It gets me all upset and such. I guess I deserve it. Do you feel it too? Probably not.

It's already Tuesday morning. Practically almost halfway done with spring break. I still have stuff to do.

- Body Imperfect essay for AP Lit
- Poster and essay for Chemistry
- Worksheets for APUSH
- Read up to page 145 for AP Lang (One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest) [I really don't enjoy that book]
- Catch up on algebra II work

You know... in a few more months, I'm going to be a senior. That's shocking to me, surprisingly. I'm still stuck in the past, you know? Not mentally, but I'm usually more reminiscent about several things.

Today at work, I don't know what the fuck happened. I was leaving for swimming class and since there was a lot of traffic in front of the store, my mom and I stayed in the car near the shop. Then this random guy goes to the store but doesn't EXACTLY go in. He looks in and about. He looks around the sidewalks and the streets. My dad is the only one at the shop. Then he practically goes down on his knees and CRAWLS in. I was like, what the fuck? He is trying to avoid the cameras or something? So I try to grab my phone from my swimming bag but my mom yells at me to go check what was he doing. Anyway, so I RUN in and the guy like jumps from shock from me running in and I called for my dad. He was in the back, btw. The guy had his hand WAY deep in his pocket, that it looked completely unnatural. My dad came and I told my dad to take care of the customer, and all the guy did was ask for change for 5 dollars. I don't know. I suspected a knife or something to be in the pocket. Who knows. After my dad told him we didn't give change I told him what my mom and I saw. Then my dad went out of the store and memorized his face... yeah. That was creepy. I just hate leaving my dad and people by themselves. Despite how much I hate working, I usually go just because I don't want my mom or anyone else to be by themselves at the shop.

Anyway, I have a dentist appointment later today. Ick. I hate dentists. I hope this one doesn't scratch out my gums like the other dentist did.

I want to go shopping, so so badly.
I'm eyeing the MAC 'Peppermint Patti' nail lacquer right now. $11 dollars for a nail polish? It's so pretty though. :[ Maybe I'll buy some new sneakers since my newest pair is practically all worn down. I have like... 35 other pairs of shoes, but lately I've been only wearing ONE. Anyway, maybe tomorrow my mom will take me shopping before my appointment. But first, I need to buy my sister a birthday present.

I talked to a customer today at work. Even though I get lectured a lot by other people, his lectures are usually about politics, schooling, and money. Sure, typical subjects, but at least they're different, you know? They're enjoyable.

Today was good, it was a short workday. I've dealt with a number of freeloaders though. -__-; Okay, you come in with 15 cents and you ask for an 85 cent donut for 15 cents. That's ridiculous, if you don't have the money, go scavenge for a few more cents to get the damn donut. We need to make a profit too. If you're short like 5 cents, I'm usually the more lenient one that will let you off and maybe give you a few extra donut holes if you're extremely polite. But no, don't come in here, making me bag a damn donut then tell me you have only 15 cents, especially if you're all "blinged" out. Hell no. Geez. Also, crazy lotto people... really. I don't have any luck in me, don't fucking blame me for your losing quick-pick ticket.

I love old people though. They're cuuute. :D Even though I was stuck with this creepy guy that kept trying to converse with me and find out where I live... I was also with mr. brown. Aw, he's great. Tony, another customer, gave me another granola bar. Sure, I don't eat them... it's the thought that counts. XD

Hopefully badminton is still on for Thursday. I want to play so bad.

Maybe I'm weird. Who knows? Ever since I've began to shop for my own things, I don't ever recall asking my parents for money unless I had no money at the time, and was going to owe it to them later. However, the majority of money I had was from Christmas and my birthday. So, I guess it's the same, but different. The rest were from work/tips. These days now, whenever my parents offer to pay for my things, I decline and tell them I can pay for it myself. It's like those relatives fighting over the check at a restaraunt. You know? I don't know if it's because I'm strange, but I can't stand asking my parents for money or letting them pay for my personal necessities. No idea why.

I'm completely guilty when it comes to splurging. I buy some stuff I don't really exactly need, but just want. I buy jamba, starbucks, or a burger at least once a week. I practically tip everytime I go to a place with a tip jar (if they're nice, of course.) But I'm awfully touchy about money. I'm a huge hypocrite. I criticize people for spending money on expensive things that they don't really need. Why? Because they don't hold jobs. Just imagine what would occur if they did. Damn. I'm guilty for behaving like this, I'm just glad that my grandma has a hold of my foot. If you're a close friend of mine, you'd know that I hate having less than 50 bucks in my wallet now. If I'm low (in my standards), I won't go out. I'd just spend that time trying to get some more money because I feel so bothered by it. OCD much?

Anyway, I was just pondering after slightly scolding my baby cousin about her material-ism. >_> I'm going to the temple tomorrow. I hope I'm able to see Malina and Denise tomorrow, if my dad doesn't rush the heck outta meee.

Finally.

It's spring break and I'm gonna chill until Wednesday or Thursday, then I'll get started on homework.

Now I'm going to take a fattynap now.
Good night!

TGIF

I had a good friday. I stole a piggy keychain from Christy today. Thanks hun. <3 Spring break in a week. My mind seems a bit hectic. I took a bloody 2 1/2 hour nap. I woke up when my mom came home. While I was asleep, Charlie threw grapes all over the place. Ugh. I don't know what's up with him these days. I swear, when he grows up, I think he's going to murder me. He's just been so out of it these past few days. He's been off completely.

It's scary.

Homework for AP Language is to watch TV commercials. What the fuck? I rarely ever watch TV. I don't like watching TV.

I'm going to go read for awhile, I guess.

I miss my grandma. It's lonely without her. :[
My sister is a bum.
I actually miss her bothering me.

I remember whenever I was scared and slept in her room last year or she slept in mine... SHE ALWAYS KEPT TALKING TO ME WHEN I WAS ASLEEP. I remember slightly waking because the lights were on and I just hear her say random crap to me. How weird, hmmph.

Christine is a bum.
rawr MICHELLIE: christine, youre weird.
Jaejoongielover: O__________________________O
Jaejoongielover: O___________________________O
Jaejoongielover: Michelle you are weirder
rawr MICHELLIE: I love you.
Jaejoongielover: I dont love you
rawr MICHELLIE: you suck monkey butt.
Jaejoongielover: Why thank you~

I keep calling everyone a bum. Well, everyone is except for grandma, harharr. I was talking to her on the phone. She was like, I was trying to look for a kangaroo stuffed animal for you! Then I told her, stuffed? I want a real one! Bring me back a real one. My grandma freaked out. She's so cuuute. :D

5-5

I feel so bummed out. Usually, I can take losses easily. However, this time I just CAN'T. I'm sorry for not putting my complete all in the game. I was so fucking out of it. Playing against them took me out of it a bit more. Goodbye ACCAAL. :[ Whatever, I hope they don't make it to ACCAAL, or get their asses whooped along the way. Shit~

I don't like playing singles. Haahaa.

I got two B's in this quarter grades. One in APUSH, which I'm pretty surprised at. I expected a C at the least, hah. Another is in Algebra II, I guess I had it coming. I don't understand shit, nor do my homework. Yep, I had it coming. I'm paying more attention in class now, yay. I seriously hope I don't have a B in ap language. Sure, I didn't do one essay... but I still get high grades on my other essays, so maybe? Blah.

I don't have much work at all this week, but why the fuck am I so tired?
I've been cussing way too much these days.
I can't wait until spring break.