College

Is anyone feeling just as scared as I am? Just as overwhelmed?
Maybe it's just me.
I was so excited for college last year, I couldn't wait to get out.
But now, it looks like a huge step I'm afraid of taking.

I Hate Odd Numbers and Unsharpened Tweezers.

I just realized today, I'm 17. I knew beforehand, but it just sort of hit me a couple hours ago. Then my reaction was pretty much "ewwww." I dislike odd numbers. I don't know why. When I was younger, my TV volume had numbers on it. When I adjusted it, I would always set it to an even number. I don't like the number 7, I like the number 6. Strange, huh?

My eyebrows are a friggen mess. I hate how my tweezers don't do shit. Really. I would wax them like I usually do, but I ended up ripping off a piece of my eyebrow... like I usually do. I would go get them threaded, but mom can tell, then she'll yell at me for wasting money when I already have a wax-machine-thingy already in my room. .___. We're in a recession... we're in a recession. Why am I so damn materialistic in a recession?!

On the brighter side, my mom made me a durian milkshake. :) I don't know how people find the smell so horrid. When I smell it in the house, I immediately think of durian and eat some of it's yummy goodness. =3

The Glass Fragments Raging a Storm.

Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs was absolutely adorable. :)
I'm most deff buying the DVD when it comes out. :D
We were going to Emeryville to watch it, but Emeryville didn't have non3D so we went to Hilltop instead. Pan, Denise, Ryan, Jeremy, and Pan's cousin went.
Talked with Denise and Pan before the movie started.
Then talked with Pan when we sat in the theater. Apparently, I don't have an inside voice.
Went to Ihop after and splitted foods with Pan.
Ryan dumped syrup on everythiiiing. Gross, but whatever.

I don't feel well right now.
So, I'll blog more later.


PS. The note on my whiteboard from Pan made me smile when I got home, lol. :D

It's All In Your Mind.

I can't wait for today.
Hopefully my mom won't bother me about it.
I want to cheer up.

I love my friends.
Thanks for talking with me yesterday and cheering me up
even when you guys probably knew I was crying like a dumbass.

I'm going to be okay. :)
Total dejavu though.

I hate how the weather keeps changing.
It's making me sick, literally.

Going to Emeryville today to go watch a couple movies with Denise, Pan, and Ryan.
MEATBALLS ftw. Then those two want to watch Jennifer's body. FML.
Buckhorn after? :]
Can't waaiiiit.

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I was rereading the end...
Man, poor Jenn. (Yeah, you.) Hella people are going to be watching Jennifer's body. AHAHA.
I love puns.
I'm lame, at least Malina understands where I'm coming from.

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me...

I'm looking forward to this Saturday with Denise&Pan. I think Ryan's coming along too? Cloudy with a chance of meatballs, folks. I can't wait. It'll make my week better since it's been a bad week.

It's been an on and off week.
- I've been wondering why I put up with your shit all this time. .
- Failed my math test.
+ Aced my physics and government test.
- Still procrastinating.
- Woke up 15 minutes before A period started. I never got ready so fast in my life.
- I feel like I'm not going to get any scholarships, so college fail.
- I lost one of my favorite shirts.
+ Random chats with friends.
- Mom nagging me about how I never help out with my brothers. I do, do they listen to me? No. Does she believe me? No. Screw it.
- California driving is a fucking bitch. People have no courtesy at ALL. It's no wonder people get into so many accidents. I miss Georgia. My grandma's nagging about my driving didn't help either.
- Dance&trig&physics, 'nuff said.
/ Creepy Denise.
- Dickheads.
- I feel like I don't get ANYTHING in spanish.
+ I love AP Lit.
+ MY MILK TOOF UPDATE. :)

I don't know what is up with me.
I hate school. At least it's Friday tomorrow.
Slowest day of the week.

Hot Cheeto Puffs

are the greatest things ever. So addicting. XD I bought a bag after trying them with Belle when we went to SF on the 4th.

Anyway, my grandma wanted to return her sunglasses so I splurged like crazy. Fuck me. D:


Sephora's Dark Room. I'm probably going to exchange this for metro chic.
OPI Banana Bandanna. It was on sale, so I snagged this. :)
OPI Russian Navy Matte. Dark blue matte, yay! :)
OPI La Paz-itively Hot Matte. Saw swatches of these and it was a must have. ^^;


My new jeans. :3 Black, regular, and dark-washed. 12 dollars each. Not bad, I guess. :3



Urban Decay Sustainable Shadow Box with travel size eyeshadow primer potion. I started early christmas shopping. I'm not entirely sure who to give this to yet. I don't want to keep it since I ever rarely wear makeup anymore and Urban Decay's eyeshadows are TOO shimmery for my taste. They're highly pigmented though. :)


The Oxford heels that Malina got me finally came in. How fucking gorgeous are they?! I don't know when&where to wear these to, but if I ever get the chance to wear heels out again, I'll most deff wear these. :)
Red undersoles remind me of Christian Louboutin shoes, so hopefully no one will get on my ass about having fakes. -_-;

They went shopping today again, but I held back since I have a lot of homework and chores to do today. Home alone, finally. :)

I Can't Stop Love Love Love

It's Midnight, your tired drunk voice
2:00 a.m., the abruptly ended phone call

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever been in love before?
Falling at first sight, like in the movies?
Spent the entire night talking on the phone?
Bragged to the entire world?
Waited in the pouring rain?
Run like crazy to the one you love?
Secretly guarded?
Gone crazy?
Pretended not to see when you really did?

I’m sure you have been in love
Spent all your money on your anniversary
Apologized even when you didn’t do anything wrong
Spent entire days writing love letters
Pushed back promises with your family
Prayed to God for that persons health
Ignored your friends
Missed them
Guarded their leaving figure

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Had your makeup wash off in the pouring rain?
Cut your long hair?
Started smoking again?
Avoided areas where they might be?
Wrote letters you know you would never send?
Called them while you were drunk?
(Hello?)
Had your lips freeze up

I’m sure you've had a broken heart
Hated them as much as you loved them
Ripped up letters you didn’t read
Deleted the phone number you will never forget
Celebrated anniversaries by yourself
Burned all the photographs
Thought every song about heartbreak in the world was yours

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Cry like an idiot
Get drunk again
Hold on to your friend
And curse that person

Time passes
Get drunk again
Grab the phone
Say love!

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Nobody knows my heart
In reality, only you don't know
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
As I live my life, I’m sure I'll see you again

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I love this song.
Take me back to the Epik High concert.
I'm glad no one ruined this song for me.

Mint Chip Ice Cream.

I would go for a pint right now.
It's freakishly hot.
I love my room in the winter because it's small and warm.
In the summer, it's death valley. My laptop overheats like crazy too.

Mint chip icecreeeaaam, how I miss you so.
No one in my family likes mintchip ice cream, so they don't buy it.

Ooh, the refreshing minty goodness. :[

Procrastination, once more.

I always feel like killing your self-esteem because you kill mine. I don't know how you're going to deal, but whatever comes at you, I'm pretty sure you deserve it.

Bad karma points these days. I've been feeling so negative and taking it out on other people. I have a feeling something huge is going to hit me.

I've been slacking off like crazy. I've only just been barely doing my homework in early morning or at school. Usually, I don't get done. Why haven't I learned my lesson?

I don't even know why I try anymore. It's been practically six months, I'm going no where. If anything at all, I'm just going backwards. Dude, six months? Really? That's pretty damn surprising since it's only infatuation.

My nails are too bright. I don't know why I painted them with this specific color&brand. It's too pretty, but application and removal is a fucking bitch. Seriously.

I miss my friends, I miss my sister. I miss having someone close that I can confide in face-to-face. I love the internet, but it's... well, the internet.

What made my day:
Girl Genius xD: MICHELLE. T^T
rawr MICHELLIE: yess?
Girl Genius xD: I'M SORRY I DIDN'T SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ON THE 7TH
Girl Genius xD: IWAS GONNA
Girl Genius xD: BUT THE JULIE LIED AND KEPT TELLING ME THE 9TH
Girl Genius xD: SO THEN I GOT SCARED
Girl Genius xD: T^T
rawr MICHELLIE: LOOOL
Girl Genius xD: i knew i shouldn't have believed her T^T
Girl Genius xD: I'M GONNA YELL AT HER TOMORROW. >:P
Girl Genius xD: i knew it.
Girl Genius xD: T^T

Girl Genius xD: and then she made me feel bad
Girl Genius xD: so i went to check your myspace comments like a stalker.
Girl Genius xD: T^T
Girl Genius xD: and then no one said happy birthday to you today
Girl Genius xD: so i was like freaking julie v____v

^ Gah, I love her. She's so adorable.

Okay, homework time folks. :)

ps. I failed that APLIT essay. FMLLL.

Please Don't Give Up, Dear You.

Contentment.

Two more days until my birthday. I'm not looking forward to it, it'll just be another day. I enjoyed my birthday-ness yesterday.

Thanks Malina&Denise for coming all the way to Pinole and standing outside my classroom. <3 Although it was a total facepalm moment, I still love you guys. It's a small world. Thanks Phillip for buying gummy worms for me again, even if all we do is fight.

Ate sushi then headed for shopping. I got a pair of new boots, a jacket, and tights. I gave Denise Becky's present to give to her. I hope she likes it. Thanks Denise for being the ultimate sweetheart. <3 I discovered even though Malina & I are practically the same size, we pull off different things. Fortunately, I'm not the one that pulls off slutty clothing. MUAHA~ That's cause Malina's diiiirrrttyyy. Just kidding. She got a pair of slutboots though. Those two BARELY bought anything. Makes me saaad. We all got the same pair of tights. Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, much? SIIIKE.

Victoria gave me a burned copy of The Matches Decomposer album. It's amazing. I listen to it everyday. Poor her for catching a bad cold though. :( I hope she gets better soon.

My day got ruined after Denise and Malina left. It's my fault though, so whatever.

I cheered up when I played omgpop games with Pan & Belle for like.. two hours until I was damn tired. I fell asleep at 10:30. I woke up at 8. I miss summer.

School's okay. No complaints about A period PE because I get to work out and I'm wide awake and warm when it comes to first period. Dance is a failure though. All we do is stretch. I can't wait until a new teacher comes because I feel like dropping that class completely. Bleh. 5th&6th period goes by pretty slowly though, unfortunately. AP Lit has to be my favorite class though, so far. I want my locker though. I don't have any classes in the halls except the 400's so I hope I get a locker there just because. X_X;

I hope this blog gets in because I've been trying to post a couple blogs already, but failed because it didn't go through. If this doesn't go through, maybe I'll move back to Xanga or head to Tumblr. Who knows. D: So, go through blog!

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Yay, it went through. :]