Darn.

I'M OBSESSED.
I DON'T LIKE THE IDEA OF BEING OBSESSED.

Man. I swear, I couldn't help it.
Maybe it's not obsession.



:[ I'm screwed.
This is like sophomore year all over again.
whywhywhywhy.


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On the brighter side...
I can go to the Epik High concert. :)
It was kind of funny actually, because all day I've been preparing myself for the scolding I would get from my mom.

She came into my room to show me what she bought from her Macy's giftcards she received from mothers day. After she showed me, she was about to leave, but then paused for a moment. She looked around my room, and was like, "You wanna go somewhere, huh?" Then I broke down and pleaded. "PLEASE MOMMYYY! ToT" Ahaha. I'm so lame.

I CANT WAAAAIT.
I hope I get there early.
I want to play badminton at arroyo's open gym. :) It's been over a week since I've played.

I'm getting frustrated. There are two or three more days of swimming class left. I still can't get the butterfly stroke right. I can do each arm seperately, but when I do it together my arms are like friggen lead. Demonte kept splashing at me. My eyes burn. Andrew makes me feel fat. He swims like 20-30 laps nonstop, and he comes later than I do. I showered, but I still stink of chlorine.

AP exams are overrr!!!
I think the highest I'll get is a 2, unfortunately.
Because I'm a horrible person that didn't study. D:
So, because of that, I'll probably get a 2 or less.
I'll start crying if i get anything higher than that.

I need to sign up for SATs.
I'm procrastinating so badly these days.

I really want to go to the concert, but my mom is being... blah-ish. Malina says theres going to be an open gym on Friday. I want to go even more now. It's kind of sad that I'm more excited for badminton on Friday and Saturday, than the Epik High concert.

I need to clean my house.
If I can go, I don't know where I'm going to put Denise.
That fat ass. Jaykay.
More like, I don't know where I'm going to put myself
cause Denise will be taking up maaahbeeed.

iwannagoiwannagopleaseletmego.

Super Junior's new song is friggen amazing.
I love it.
I feel my fangirly-ness from 8th grade coming back.
*FANGIRL SQUEAL*

My sister got me makeup. :D
Psst, she's becoming more giving.
& I'm not.
Ohboyohboy.
*hi*

I can't wait for the summer.
I'm still deciding on what PE class to take this summer. Tennis? Volleyball? Aerobics?
I want to take psychology. I don't know. Maybe I'll double up PE.

I'm tired.
Goodnight folks.

Another day.

32 more hours-ish until the AP Language exam.

I missed 3 days of swimming. That's a long, honestly. The people in class were like, "oh my goodness, you're finally back." O_O Apparently, they thought I had the swine flu. I asked coach what my makeup was going to be, he excused me from it all because he knew I had exams, accaal, and crap. He said he didn't want me stressing up and stuff. That really touched me. :[

Yesterday, I accidentally spilled hot water all over my hands. My mom was being ridiculous and filled the glass cups all the way to the brim of boiling hot water. She came down the hallway holding two cups at the top and yelled at me to grab one, then she put one in my hands, then it spilled all over my right hand, then I pulled that hand away, out of reflex. After that, it sloshed over onto my left hand. I rush to put it at the sink but my hands were burning that it tilted over and spilled on my hands again, and the cup fell to the floor and broke :(. I was pretty pissed off because it hurt like hell, more than when that idiotic guy from Livermore bumped into me when I was putting cookies into an oven in cooking class. Yeah, I ended up "raising my voice at her" about how it was ridiculous putting that much hot water into a glass cup with no handles and carrying two of them. I feel bad, but my hands wouldnt stop stinging until this morning. Sorry that I keep my hands moisturized, soft, and unchaffed, never expected to have hot water thrown onto my hands. They ended up dumping salt, toothpaste, and ice on my hands. -___- Thank goodness it wasn't open wounds because you're not suppose to use salt or toothpaste. -_- Infections much? Ice didn't really help much either. At least we had some cooling gel. That stuff smells funny though.

Couldn't really get much sleep that night, nor any homework done. Oh well, I went to work that day and went to eat afterwards. :] People like to make me feel bad about how I don't get my mother presents. I did get her presents, but what did she do with them afterwards? Return them or never touch them again and then scold me about how I spend too much money. So. I go work instead with no pay. :] love you mommy.

I really want to go to the concert, but my mom isn't really allowing me at the moment until she gets proof that I'm actually going with Denise, Malina, Pan, and Belle. :[
Blah.

This week is going to suck.

Chemistry comic page project.
I don't like drawing. I suck at drawing.

Well, goodnight folks.

Happy Belated Birthday, Panphila!
Although you don't read this, I love you <47328492561414453
I hope you had a good one. :) You deserve it~

:( I feel so horrible for letting my AP exam completely consume my mind, then after, mope about it. I'm such a badbadbad person. :(

Yesterday and today, I talked with Will. It was random talk, perverted random talk. The usual, you know? but then it came to his girlfriend. Dude, at least he realized his girlfriend's dislike for me before they got together. T_T; Man, those were awkward times. But, I'm glad they're together. :) They sound like they're going to be married high school sweethearts. I wish I would have a high school sweetheart that I would marry, but then again, that sounds like from a cliched movie. Divorce rates are pretty high these days. So, no thanks. :) Good luck with them though.

Tomorrow's mothers day. Happy early mothers day! :) Love you mommy.
I think my dad is going to go bring my mom to places. I think I'll stay home with my grandma. :)
But then she's nagging me to go to work tomorrow. Should I? Should I not? I don't want to stay at the shop by myself tomorrow. =T I have a small research paper to do for chemistry though. Blah.

My cousin is friggen hogging the washing machine. Damn, and I thought I had a lot of clothes. I think she went through 6 loads already? Geez. I need to do some laundry too. Mine only takes one loads, cept theres the occasional two when other people start hogging the washer and I have to wait until a few days after to get it. :(

It's getting warm now. :) I'm glad. I get to pull out my shorts again!
Who wears short shorts?
Michelle wears shorts.
Not short shorts.

Denise, don't come to the shop tomorrow.
She'll be all like... YOURE GOING BACK TO YOUR OLD WAYS?! Those damn hooker shorts?!
No, I'm not! That was in 5th grade and I wasn't developed. :( Shush.

Sunny should come to the shop tomorrow. :( It's been almost two years since I've last seen him.

I feel so accomplished today. I won at this one game and I successfully got my brother to like macaroni and cheese. Now, I just need to get him to understand that burger meat and steak come from the same animal. -____-; He eats burgers but why won't he eat steak?! He tells me he's not a meatatarian. W. T. F. ?! It's okay. He's slowly breaking down. :]

Night, folks.

Blaah.

Badminton season is officially overrrr. :[ Aw. Congrats on those who made it to NCS though. :]

Yesterday was ACCAAL. First game was De Anza, won against them but they got into the double digits. So I was ehh about that, but it's all good. (: Next was Alameda. Diane was freaking out because they killed Hercules by 21-2 then 21-1. Shieet. Our score against Alameda was 12-21 then 8-21. I'm happy we actually got a better score, but I was disappointed. When it was consolation, we ended up playing Hercules. 24-22 then 21-15. HARHARHAR. :D I'm so proud of us. After that we played Encinal, 10-21 then 8-21. =__=; It's okay. At least we beat Hercules, heh. It was interesting, just watched matches after that. :) Berkeley was just @#!&#@ though. Erghh.

Today was my AP exam.
I'm so disappointed in myself.
I screwed up sosososo bad.
Then there was a quiz 5th period too. I failed that craaap. Least I had a nice talk with Dominic about hella random shieet.
I shouldn't drink coffee for my AP Language exam. D:

++edit.
There was this time during the exam...
that for the essay, I totally forgot a major thing.
So I was cursing and yelling (in my head of course) about how the hell I've forgotten it on such an important exam.
When I get to that essay though and looked at the clock
BAAAAAAAM! It came back.
Wahaha. I feel successful.
No, not really.

I seriously hope I get slightly better tomorrow.
I feel like a complete pile of shieet.

@___@
Damn.




My mommy made me take these huge pills yesterday.
I was knocked out for 11 hours and I was still sleepy at school.
Couldn't go swimming cause I was super dizzy. :[

I hope I don't get kicked out.
Bleh. Needa do homework now.

My cousin's english makes me cringe.
Well, not usually.
but when she's fighting with her boyfriend.
It sounds like the most awkwardest thing. ever.
More awkward than my grandma's english.
harharhar.
I love my grandma. :D
I'm not allowed to go near her because I'm sick. :(

W T F

dude.
what the hell happened?

it's official.
guys suck.
like... hella bad.


'cept Ryan.



& Jeremy, because he's nice enough to read my blog.
(I think.)
but if he doesn't, it's okay. He still doesn't suck. xD



I really don't enjoy my high school years.

DENEPHEW says: You are smart(:
^ THE NICEST THING SHES EVER SAID TO MEEE. EVERRR.

:)

I had a good day, despite strange customers at work and lifting so many melons at Costco.

Denise and Ryan came over. We just basically sat around and they messed with my laptop. Gave them each a box of donuts.

I haven't laughed that hard in a long, long time.

Thanks guys. :)

-- Can't wait for the concert. <3

Om nom nooom...

This morning, I was cursing (in my mind) my sister because she had nutella with strawberries. I want a jar of nutella, despite how fattening it is. :(

I went to the eye doctor and paid for my glasses, then went to San Jose. Long ride, but I couldn't fall asleep.

Went to Christine's house. SHE HIT MY BIRDIE INTO THE RAIN GUTTER. :( Two more left. Then her and Calvin kept bullying me. :( They were so mean today.

Went shopping with them later. Christine needed a promotion dress and a dance dress, so we headed straight to Forever 21, of course. I picked out dresses for her, but there was something always wrong with the dress because of her bewbies. Damn her big bewbies. She might read this and curse me out about mentioning her big bewbies, but you know what? That's what you geeeet for bullying me and not letting me bring Doraemon home. Ugh, I like their mall. It's so much better than Hilltop. I stopped myself from buying clothes though, instead I bought a new pair of shoes.

The highlight of my day, besides me buying a new pair of shoes, (Damn, I know I was on a shoe ban, but it's spring. I wanted some spring sandals.) was that I got some mango gelato and a strawberries&cream crepe WITH nutella. Oh babyyyy~ Shared with Christine because I thought she wanted some gelato too. I should've bought her a seperate one so I could be alone with my crepe.

Calvin ended up buying three shirts and a new pair of vans. He spent over $100. Asshole kept promising that he'll buy me the same pair of shoes for my birthday. Siiiike. If he buys me a pair of shoes, I'll buy him a pair of shoes. But, I highly doubt it.

I wanted to buy MAC's Peppermint Patti nail lacquer, but then I realized I was on a nail polish diet. :( BUT NOW ITS NO LONGER ON SAAAAALE. I'm so materialistic, bleckkkk.

I'm going to work tomorrow. Nine hours of dealing with people. :( I hope I don't get fat from eating donuts out of boredom.

The itsy bitsy spider...

Yesterday, last game of the season. We lost against Hercules. :( 7-9. I swear I jinxed it from one of my previous blogs. SORRYYY.

I got smashed with a birdie on my butt, thigh, back, and head. Diane accidentally smashed my hand with her racquet. IT'S OKAY. :D It was my fault because she called "mine" but didn't really process through my head until after. =_= That would've been a killer smash though. Made a straight red line mark, and a bruise that's almost to my knuckle and near my wrist. xD Thanks Diane for a great first season and dealing with my noobness. Next year we'll friggen pwn that-schools-butt-that-I-don't-want-to-name-or-else-I-might-jinx-it.

Someoneeee, let's go to APAC one day and play? :D Please, please, please? I don't want to put away my new racquet (but already chipped...) yet. D:

It's going to be weird to have freetime on my hands again.
I guess during my freetime, I'll get started on that 10-page essay for AP Lang.

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Anyway, today during school was good. It was until afterschool where the day just went down...
My grandma got one of her teeth pulled today. When I went to the car, it was heavily bleeding. So, we go all the way to Oakland with a bunch of tissue in her mouth. The receptionists was annoying me. We understood that we had to wait, and we were. I asked for tissue for my grandma when hers was heavily soaked with blood. She threw it away, and her mouth was filling up with blood. What did they not understand about, "CAN WE PLEASE GET SOME TISSUE? MY GRANDMAS MOUTH IS BLEEDING." No, one of them told me to wait for the other receptionist to finish talking on the phone. For what? FOR TISSUE? It wasn't until I yelled at her that she decided to get up and get some gauzes. Because my grandma's mouth was filled with blood, she spit it into the trashcan.

Later, the dental-assistant started nagging my grandma and I about her spitting thats why she can't stop bleeding and not enough pressure. Excuse me? I was in the car with my grandma for over an hour stuck in traffic and she did not spit at ALL. She only spit when the receptionist wasn't able to give her anything to soak up the blood with. Then all she told me was "exactly." Then she told me that my grandma needed to swallow whatever, instead of spitting it out. Uh, heck no.

I give them major brownie points for working all day, studying hard, and dealing with horrible patients/people like myself. I'm usually polite, but what the hell?

My parent's immaturity ruined my day even more. Honestly, how can they both be so blind? I don't want to go to work tomorrow. I'm probably going to end up being in the middle of them and say something that'll offend them both. I'll stay home with my grandma. :)

Have a good night, folks.

-- What is up with my neighbors? They play good music, but I don't enjoy hearing their trucks going in and out of their driveway in the middle of the night, thank you very much.